2nd day of Feb.

Yesterday night i sleep at 5am. I thought i already made up my mind what will happen soon or later. But still i woke up at 9am something but still i try to force myself to sleep, never gonna think negative things. But cant help it, i roll on my bed quite some time till 12pm something. Then i do my routine stuff. I don't feel like eating much because I'm still thinking negative stuff. I do smoke when i feel depressed. For this moment i will try to keep myself busy no matter what!